1996-98: Discovering the Purpose of Life My ambition was to start my own business, and to succeed financially. I worked from nine to five for my regular job and I had to work on my own project after work. My life was really tough. I worked until 12.00 a.m., almost everyday. It was really tough by being employed full time, and at the same time had to work on my own business project after work. After two years of hard works, I realized that my business project could not materialize due to the lack of support from my father and brothers. Painfully, I also came to realize that they would never support me financially in any business endeavor I wanted to pursue. Again, my dream was shattered and I was deeply hurt in my heart, by the altitude of my family towards me. Because of that, my desire for financial success was made more intense. I prayed very hard for another God's greatest miracle. "As Christian, our life paths are constantly monitored and corrected by him, the ends of which should lead to eternal heaven. No hardship should hamper our goals, but only to motivate us to move forward." In 1997, there was a financial crisis in Malaysia, and the property development industry collapsed soon after that. I knew that my working contract would not be extended after its expiry date on 15 March 1999. I was really worried, as I had a family to support. All I could do was to keep praying to God. Some time in February 1998, I saw an article about an invention competition organized by a British advertising company. Suddenly it gave me the idea to explore in the invention field. My interest in computer started when I was working in the property development company, as I was given a private desktop, and hence had the opportunity to spend lots of my time on a computer. Looking around my desktop in the office, I noticed the problem of cable mess. So, I decided to start my first invention project to solve the problem of cable mess in computer system. I first started to sketch the idea with my computer software. After numerous sketches, a box was invented to organize the computer cables. It consisted of four compartments where extra lengths of cables could be rolled up and kept neatly in the compartments. Later I also came out with the idea of slotting plates and the supply of electricity power inside the case. After four weeks of drawing and designing, the first FRONTX was invented. In April 1998, my first drawing proposal of FRONTX was completed. The initial FRONTX consisted of four cable storage compartments, accessory slots on the front and side panels of the casing, and an electrical connector in the casing to supply electrical power to external peripherals. April 1998 was also the month when I came to know that Elaine was pregnant. Me and Elaine were overjoyed with the good news of the pregnancy as both of us had been praying for a baby for quite some time. But bad news was, the conception was weak, and Doctor had to regularly monitor the health of Elaine and our baby. I had to depend on God, praying for the health and safety of Elaine and my baby. FRONTX was presented to an officer from SIRIM. His words were very encouraging to me. He advised me to file a patent and pursue the project further. I proposed to join venture with SIRIM to commercialize FRONTX, but one month later, I was told that SIRIM was not in the position to do so. I spent lots of my time searching through the Internet to absorb the information and regulations concerning the intellectual property protection in the worldwide coverage. I joined the news group in the internet to learn more about invention and intellectual property protection. The first prototype of FRONTX was done by my carpenter friend. I remember the very same night, after testing the prototype, I realized that there were so many problems with the invention. The cables were so difficult to be rolled into the storage compartments. Power cables were hard to be fixed into the power connector. The whole concept seemed like it was going to fail. I was so sad and thought that I should abandon the project. I prayed really hard to God, questioning why I should go through all those trials and hardships. "Always pray to God in whatever we do, or whenever we have problems in our works. We should pray for wisdom. He will guide us to make things right, as he can solve all problems. He is the God who likes us to pray and ask, and he will answer. He likes us to always think of him, always seek his helps and always depend on him." On the same night, I worked until 6.00 a.m. in the morning, kept testing and developing on the prototype. Finally I decided to eliminate the ideas of cable compartments and power connector. I took out all the internal compartment walls and the power connection device. FRONTX was left with just a simple empty box with slots on the front and side panels. A new concept was then created, FRONTX became a simple box to store all the external mess of PC like power sockets, transformers, adapters and cables. The slotting features were maintained, to fix the computer ports on the front. I believed the design of FRONTX was finalized, but the next thing that concerned me was whether it was the first concept of its kind in the world. I was wondering whether anyone in the world had already filed a patent on that concept. It seemed like the project gave me so many uncertainties along the way. I was thinking, it really depends on God to make my project materialize. I really could not do much without God's blessing. There were too many problems and uncertainties in the project. I decided to just keep on working and prayed hard for his blessing. Later, with God's guidance, I developed another version of FRONTX which fits into the drive bay of computer case, I also came to realize that the slotting features of FRONTX can also be incorporated onto the front panel of computer system. The invention was further improved. FRONTX became a simple device to flexibly relocate the computer ports to the front panel. I feel like FRONTX was not invented by me, as it went through so many stages of development and improvement. I feel like God was guiding and leading me along the way. Right now, FRONTX has been finalized and is ready for commercialization, but my bank account is basically flat. Now what? I need at least forty thousands Ringgit within a year, to file the patent through PCT, or else I will loose my right for worldwide protection. I have a few choices, within a year; I need to find a licensee, I need forty thousands Ringgit, I need to find a financial supporter or I need to have enough money to start my own production and commercialization. All the above seem hard and impossible. I wonder why I invented FRONTX in the first place. "No one can claim to be smart and wise except God. We might be smart, but without God's blessing, opportunities will not come to us, and success will not prevail. A wise man prays for wisdom. A smart man prays for success. But be patient if answers are delayed, as God does not want us to fall into sins. On one hand, he will give what we ask, but on the other hand, he wants to keep us away from Satan, because of his love for us." My baby daughter will be borne in about three weeks from now. Three days ago, I was told that my wife might need caesarian due to the abnormal orientation of the baby. My wife cried when she knew that. Well, to me, I want to leave it to God, as he knows what is the best for Elaine. I consoled her and it seemed like God's spirit was working on her as she quickly accepted the fact. However I will keep on praying for the normal delivery, as she prefers. To me, Caitlin is the gift from God. During the early stage of pregnancy, the conception was weak, as shown by the occasional slight bleedings experienced by Elaine. I could see her love for Caitlin and her worries for the safety of Caitlin. She prayed very hard to God. Her faith to him was strengthened during that period of uncertainties and concerns. I was really touched, the way God had saved Elaine spiritually. "God touched Elaine's heart, like he had touched mine many times. God keeps calling on all of us indirectly, to believe in him. He will never provide physical signs to convince us of his existence, or speak to us loudly in the sky, that he is the God. In another words, he wants us to choose freely by our own wills, whether to believe in him, or to reject him. If we choose to accept him, we must believe that Jesus has died for our sins, so that his Holy Spirit can enter our heart, and we will be able to develop a relationship with him." I trust God. I pray that let the baby be healthy and "Oh God, please show your mercy and blessing to me and my family". I know everything will be fine for Elaine and Caitlin. God will bless three of us. Now, Elaine is in her final month of pregnancy. So far everything went well. In fact, God has shown his blessing already. According to the doctor, Caitlin is healthy and active, as seen through the scan. "Through Caitlin, I experienced the mystery of life. Life is indeed the creation of God. The duration from conception to birth was only nine months. We can't control the health and perfection of the baby during pregnancy, all we can do is to keep praying and let God handles it. I begin to ask myself why were we sent to this world, or rather why were we created? Jesus mentioned that we were created to serve God, to love him like he has loved us, to love our neighbors like he has loved all of us. Then I realize that, the true meaning of life started with love. Without love, life will have no meaning. It's love that keeps the world going. Without love, there's no family, without love, there's no children, and without love, the world will come to an end." As the delivery day gets closer, I know that I must be financially capable from now on, to support my new family. I want to give them the best I can, as I really love them. But most unfortunately, sometime last month, I was informed that my work contract would be terminated earlier, due to the current bad economy situation. In another words, I was retrenched. October 1998 will be my last month of working for the property development company. It was indeed shocking news to me and Elaine. My main financial burden is my house loan installments. If I can't pay the installments, the bank will auction my apartment, and I will be left homeless. My financial will be very tight in months to come. Everything needs money; house loan installments, the medical bills for Caitlin's delivery, our meals, milk, clothes, utility bills…. How am I going to survive? In fact, I am more concerned for Elaine and Caitlin. If it's me alone, it doesn't matter if I have to beg and sleep on the street. But I don't want Elaine and Caitlin to go through any hardship. It will be most hurting and painful in my heart to see them suffering. I know I love them, more than I love myself. I want to thank God for building my strong faith in him. If not my faith, I guess I really cannot face the current situation. I know God is testing on me again. He wants to see how I react to him. I realize that the difference now is I don't feel angry with him at all. Previously I showed my anger to God at the very moment when I was facing great difficulty. This time, I have learnt to leave everything to him. In my heart, I am thinking; "He is my Father in Heaven and he loves me so much. Then if he allows this to happen, he will offer me a solution." I will continue to pursue my FRONTX project. I know he will provide me the financial mean to commercialize the project and he will bless the project and make it succeed. Today is 20 October 1998, 12.00 p.m. in my office, I would like to end this profile. I will leave my future and my family in God's hands. I know we will be blessed, God's name will be glorified and Satan will be defeated. I now pray to God; "Oh God, our Father in Heaven, I thank you for bringing me to this world. Thank you God for sending your only Son, our Lord Jesus Christ, to die for our sins. Thank you for your love, your blessings and your supports throughout my life. Thank you God for all the hardships and difficulties I have been through, through these, I have learnt to trust you and to depend on you. Thank you God for answering all my prayers, and for bringing me closer to you, and for helping me to understand you better each day. I thank you God, for the blessings you have shown to Elaine and Caitlin. I pray that you will continue to love them, bless them and guide them throughout their lives. Oh God, I am about to lose my job, and Caitlin will be delivered soon, but I trust you, I trust that you will help me to overcome all difficulties ahead. I would like to submit my family in your hands. I love them very much, and I don't want to see them suffer. Please God, please bless FRONTX, please provide me the financial mean to commercialize the project and please God, please grant it success. I pray that through FRONTX, your name will be glorified and Satan will be defeated. All these I ask and pray in Jesus' name, our Lord, our savior, Amen." next page >> Forewords . 1965-73: Childhood . 1974-75: God's Call . 1976-81: The Relationship Continued . 1982-83: Singapore . 1984: Kuala Lumpur . 1985-87: Sydney . 1988-89: Penang . 1990-1991: Sydney . 1992: Year of Graduation . 1992-95: Working in Architecture Firm, Penang . 1995: Meeting My Wife . 1996: Year of Marriage . 1996-98: Discovering the Purpose of Life . Conclusion . Appendix I: Question & Answer . Appendix II: The Words of Christ